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Tragic Details About Anthony Bourdain
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BY MARIEL LOVELAND/UPDATED: OCT. 14, 2020 10:02 AM EST
Anthony Bourdain was one of the most beloved foodies on the planet (with the Emmy Awards to prove it), and a large part of his success can be attributed to the introspective but sardonic way he found magic in the grittiest corners every city he passed through. It wasn't about Michelin stars or high cuisine. The chef didn't buy into food trends or showcase Instagram hot spots. Rather, he was vocal about his fiery disdain for brunch, the kind of hatred that brewed in a soul tasked with cooking 300 omelettes a day.
Bourdain's projects were less about food and more about the human experience, often shedding light on the less privileged class. Whether it was No Reservations or Parts Unknown, his gonzo accounts possessed the kind of sensitivity that made eating a hot dog in the Jersey suburbs feel enormous. He even inadvertently transformed his TV series into an Emmy-nominated war documentary when the 2006 Lebanon War broke out just 24 hours after he landed to film in Beirut. The final scene saw the chef evacuating alongside Marines — a dramatic ending, but one that was entirely Bourdain. It was never about the food, it was always about the way there.
Bourdain's brand of storytelling is only possible from a person who's truly lived — someone who's sunk deep down into the caverns of rock bottom the same way they've risen to the peaks of success. His life may have been marred with darkness, but it was always honest.
One raw oyster defined the course of Anthony Bourdain's life
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Much like the never-ending Jerseyite battle between Taylor ham and pork roll, food was a form of rebellion for Anthony Bourdain. The chef had a rather traditional upbringing in Leonia, one that involved spending summers at the Jersey Shore and what we can only assume was the painfully teenaged experience of hanging out in diner parking lots (at least, if he was like every other kid in the state). He only developed his adventurous palette — which expanded far beyond visiting Sheetz instead of Wawa — as a way to rebel against his parents.
In a 2017 interview with The Guardian, the chef admitted that it all began on a family vacation to France, his first time ever in the country. On that trip, both he and his brother were allowed to drink "watered-down wine and cigarettes on Sundays." One day, his parents left both of them in the car while they ate at a restaurant, and he pushed back by "requesting oysters and dishes they found repulsive." He admitted, "It wasn't about the food but about getting a reaction."
In his 2000 Kitchen Confidential memoir (via Page Six), Bourdain revealed that eating that raw oyster was the thing that, as the outlet put it, "scarred him for life." He wrote, "The food, the long and often stupid and self-destructive search for the next thing, whether it was sex or drugs or some other new sensation, would all stem from this moment."
Anthony Bourdain dropped out of Vassar to become a dishwasher
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Anthony Bourdain was teased in high school. As his childhood friend, Sam Goldman, told GQ, the world traveler was "tiny," and they "hazed him just a bit" during their ski-club trips, once even making him "ride in the luggage rack." Bourdain eventually graduated and went to Vassar, a private liberal arts college in New York that floats just under the Ivy League — but he was miserable.
Bourdain's brother, Chris, told the magazine that the chef "didn't like [college]" and "didn't care." He added, "I definitely remember, we went to some restaurant in Putnam County, New York, on Route 22, where our parents had a massive, huge f**king argument with Tony: Why are we paying for Vassar? You're f**king up there."
Bourdain didn't end up going back to school. Instead, he searched for a new purpose, later telling The Guardian that he only "became happy" — or rather "intensely satisfied" — when he started washing dishes at a restaurant in Provincetown, Mass. Bourdain was eventually promoted to "dunking fries" and decided that he wanted to pursue a culinary career after witnessing one of the chefs in an intimately awkward — but thrilling — moment: the chef was actively having an affair with a bride by the trash bins "while her wedding party dined inside." Bourdain later attended the Culinary Institute of America, according to USA Today.
Anthony Bourdain quit heroin cold turkey
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Anthony Bourdain's memoir, Kitchen Confidential, certainly sheds light on the hedonistic side of New York's 1980s restaurant scene. In his early 20s, the chef worked in SoHo at a restaurant that nurtured the celeb's budding drug addiction — so much so that he'd send a busboy out to Alphabet City to score. Page Six reports that the chef regularly used speed and cocaine during his shifts before eventually graduating to heroin. He even dabbled in crack and LSD during late nights after work, watching punk bands and hanging out at after-hours clubs.
"We were high all the time, sneaking off to the walk-in refrigerator at every opportunity to 'conceptualize,'" Bourdain explained in his memoir (via USA Today). "Hardly a decision was made without drugs." It was undoubtedly a reckless lifestyle — one where Bourdain ran himself ragged to the point that, as he told The New Yorker in a 2017 profile, "I didn't like what I saw in the mirror." Per the outlet, the chef admitted he "ended up on methadone ... unable to leave town without permission, waiting in line to pee in a cup." He eventually quit heroin "cold turkey" in 1987, but spent "several more years" in the throes of cocaine addiction.
Anthony Bourdain spent most of his life flat-out broke
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Anthony Bourdain didn't find success until he was nearing middle age, and spent his life in kitchens completely broke. It was bad enough that it actually kept him up at night. In an op-ed written for Wealthsimple in 2017, the chef admitted that he didn't have a savings account until he was 44 years old and didn't have health insurance until around 2001.
After graduating from culinary school and jumping full-time into kitchen work, Bourdain found himself struggling with grueling 12-hour shifts, during which he made only about $120 after taxes, according to CNBC. Around this time, he also spent "a few hundred dollars a week" on weed and often owed money to one of the chefs for cocaine, per Page Six. He was "always a paycheck behind, at least," but that changed after Kitchen Confidential came out in 2000.
"When Kitchen Confidential was published, I hadn't filed taxes in about 10 years," Bourdain wrote (via Uproxx). "I was seriously behind on rent. It had been about a decade since I'd communicated with American Express in a timely manner." He added, "In my daily life, the goal was to muffle the anxiety that I'd feel as I tried to drift off to sleep knowing that, at any point, what little money I had in my bank account could be garnished by the IRS or the credit card company. The landlord could kick me to the curb. That was my reality for many years."
Crack made Anthony Bourdain 'bottom out'
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Anthony Bourdain's addiction escalated beyond what he could've ever imagined. In 2017, he admitted to The New Yorker that he "bottomed out on crack." One of his lowest moments, which he rehashed during a Reddit AMA, was when he was so desperate to get a fix that he started digging out white paint chips from the shag rug in his apartment, hoping they were actually bits of crack, and ended up smoking them anyway. Another time, he found himself outside during the holidays, trying to hawk the record collection he cherished just for some cash.
Though viewers saw Bourdain regularly drink throughout his series, when he quit drugs, he quit for good and never looked back. During his Reddit AMA, the celeb chef revealed that he had "never been tempted to relapse," probably because his "experiences were so awful in the end." While writing about his 20-something self, Bourdain admitted, "I was a complete a**hole. Selfish, larcenous, druggy, loud, stupid, insensitive and someone you would not want to have known. I would have robbed your medicine cabinet had I been invited to your house."
Anthony Bourdain opened up about his mental health struggle in an episode of Parts Unknown
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Anthony Bourdain's battle with depression is something that plagued him throughout his life. In an interview with The Guardian, he admitted that during his restaurant years, he was an "unhappy soul, with a huge heroin and then crack problem." He carried a lot of shame and regret regarding the people he disappointed and offended during that phase of his life, but darkness followed him well into adulthood, even after he managed to kick drugs.
In 2016, Bourdain gave us a deeper glimpse of his struggle with mental health while visiting Argentina during an episode of Parts Unknown. According to Metro, the chef sat down with a psychologist and revealed that he felt "kind of isolated" and was often triggered by tiny, inconsequential things. "I will find myself in an airport for instance and I'll order a airport hamburger. It's an insignificant thing, it's a small thing, it's a hamburger, but it's not a good one," Bourdain said (via Metro). "Suddenly I look at the hamburger and I find myself in a spiral of depression that can last for days." He went on to note that he felt "kind of isolated."
Anthony Bourdain's mental health took a toll after his first marriage ended
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Anthony Bourdain married his high school sweetheart, and in some respects, the pair brought the worst out of each other. According to a profile in The New Yorker, Nancy Putkoski — an older student — "ran with a druggie crowd," and Bourdain liked "dabbling in illicit substances." When the chef graduated from the Culinary Institute of America, the couple moved into "a rent-stabilized apartment" on Manhattan's Riverside Drive, where they lived in a love that Bourdain compared to the one portrayed in the famed film Drugstore Cowboy.
"That kind of love and codependency and sense of adventure — we were criminals together," he told The New Yorker. "A lot of our life was built around that, and happily so." At least until it wasn't. The pair divorced in 2005, which Bourdain called his life's "great betrayal." He sunk into a frightening rough patch, which he described in his 2011 book, Medium Raw (via Page Six). After the split, he jet-set to the Caribbean, where he was "aimless and regularly suicidal." He spent his nights in brothels, getting "the kind of drunk where you've got to put a hand over one eye to see straight." Things only eased up when he met a woman in London. "My nightly attempts at suicide ended," he wrote.
Anthony Bourdain's life of constant travel tore his second marriage apart
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Anthony Bourdain's lifestyle ended up taking a toll on his second marriage to mixed martial artist Ottavia Busia. In a 2016 interview with People, he said it was "really tough" constantly being away from his family, estimating that he spent "about 250 days a year" on the road filming his CNN series. Busia also admitted to Page Six that both of their "professional decisions" led them to this sort of "unconventional relationship."
Though Busia and Bourdain share a daughter, they were living "very separate lives" in the years before their divorce — so this breakup wasn't a huge lifestyle change. "As a marriage, clearly it's not ideal but there's no injured party here, nobody's angry, nobody feels like the injured party, nobody feels like a victim. So we'll proceed like that," Bourdain told People, adding that he believed they did "a really good job" as a family and planned to continue to co-parent their daughter.
According to Page Six, the former couple never actually finalized their divorce before Bourdain's death in 2018, even though he started dating Italian actress Asia Argento shortly after their split. However, People reports that this may have not been a top priority because he never planned to marry again.
The truth about Asia Argento's cheating rumors
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For fans of Parts Unknown, Anthony Bourdain's relationship with Asia Argento wasn't exactly a major surprise. The chef told The Hollywood Reporter that the pair first met while he was filming the show in Rome, and the chemistry was palpable during the segments they shared. After her appearance, the duo were spotted hanging out on beaches and holding hands through Europe while smoking cigarettes. Though the Daily Mail reports that the couple didn't officially start dating until a year after they met in Italy, that didn't stop the tabloid from speculating that their so-called "crazy" love was somehow concerning to Bourdain's friends.
Page Six reports that five days before the chef's death, a paparazzo caught Argento on what appeared to be a romantic outing with a French journalist. Of course, because of the unfortunate timing, Argento was vilified in the press for somehow contributing to Bourdain's strife — so much so that the pap who snapped the shot even told Page Six that he regretted it.
The truth is that Argento and Bourdain never had a conventional relationship. In an interview with Daily Mail TV, the actress revealed that the pair both cheated on each other and "it wasn't a problem" for them. The couple's friend, Rose McGowan, confirmed this in an open letter (via People), where she revealed the pair had a "free relationship" and "loved without borders of traditional relationships."
Anthony Bourdain helped Ronan Farrow expose Harvey Weinstein
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It may seem out of his lane, but Anthony Bourdain actually helped Ronan Farrow expose disgraced movie mogul Harvey Weinstein, who's now serving 23 years in prison. The chef was a vocal supporter of the #MeToo movement, and Asia Argento was one of the very first women to speak out in 2017.
In Farrow's 2019 book, Catch and Kill (via Page Six), the journalist revealed that he was originally reporting on Weinstein's sprawling sexual assault and harassment allegations for NBC, but the network "derailed its publication" (though NBC later claimed the story didn't meet their standards). Bourdain, whose girlfriend was one of the women who opened up in the piece, ended up contacting The New Yorker, the publication that first published his writing in 1999. Explaining Weinstein's abhorrent behavior to editor David Remnick, Bourdain reportedly wrote, "I am not a religious man, but I pray you have the strength to run this story."
When Farrow's exposé was finally published, Bourdain tweeted support for his girlfriend: "I am proud and honored to know you. You just did the hardest thing in the world." Farrow ended up winning a Pulitzer Prize.
Anthony Bourdain reportedly reached out for help before his passing
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Rose McGowan was close to both Anthony Bourdain and Asia Argento, especially after the chef's role in taking down Harvey Weinstein. After Bourdain's passing, the actress wrote an open letter to the "behest" of his grieving girlfriend, where she revealed that Bourdain was struggling prior to his death.
Per the letter, which was excerpted by People, McGowan claimed that both Argento and Bourdain dealt with similar mental health issues. "Anthony told a mutual friend, 'He's never met anyone who wanted to die more than him,'" she wrote. The pair eventually both sought help, though McGowan claimed that Bourdain didn't "take the doctor's advice."
"Over their time together, thankfully, [Argento] did the work to get help, so she could stay alive and live another day for her and her children," McGown continued, before alleging, "Anthony's depression didn't let him, he put down his armor, and that was very much his choice. His decision, not hers. His depression won."
Anthony Bourdain's tragic death
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In June 2018, Anthony Bourdain was found unresponsive in his hotel room by his friend, chef Eric Ripert, who was working with the chef on an episode of Parts Unknown in France. According to CNN, the 61-year-old star had taken his own life. The chef's mother, who spoke to The New York Times, revealed that Ripert admitted Bourdain had "been in a dark mood" for a couple of days, but the act itself was perplexing.
Since the discovery of his passing, Bourdain's death has been mourned by more than just his close family and colleagues. It's been mourned by an entire world, who watched the chef highlight the strangest pleasures of our existence — from the radio cutting in and out during a solemn, late-night drive through the west Texas desert to the fantastical costumed night clubs hidden behind Tokyo's neon lights. Those things will never be forgotten, and even among the darkness, Bourdain had a sardonic optimism that remains infectious.
"I should've died in my 20s," Bourdain said in a 2016 interview with Todd Aaron Jensen (via CNBC). "I became successful in my 40s. I became a dad in my 50s. I feel like I've stolen a car — a really nice car — and I keep looking in the rear-view mirror for flashing lights. But there's been nothing yet."
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Bourdain's autobiography, Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly (via Mental Floss), detailed a childhood trip to France, where his family was invited on a boat by an oyster fisherman named Monsieur Saint-Jour. It was on that boat that Anthony tasted his first oyster.
"I took it in my hand, tilted the shell back into my mouth as instructed by the by now beaming Monsieur Saint-Jour, and with one bite and a slurp, wolfed it down. It tasted of seawater ... of brine and flesh ... and somehow ... of the future," he wrote. His love affair with food was ignited, but his journey to the kitchen took a detour...
Being a dishwasher brought him happiness
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In an interview with The Guardian, the celebrity chef said he "only became happy — in fact, intensely satisfied — as a dishwasher at a restaurant in Provincetown in Cape Cod, my first job." Describing himself as a "shy, goofy, awkward teenager," Bourdain said the "factory-like environment" of the job brought him a sense of contentment. "Dishes had to go in the washer and come out taintless and doing this swiftly and competently meant I was acknowledged as a human being by colleagues I wanted to be like," he said.
It wasn't just the acknowledgement that brought him joy. Bourdain told Fresh Air (via NPR), "You had to be there on time. There were certain absolute rules. And for whatever reason, I responded to that. It was a mix of chaos but also considerable order that I guess I needed at the time."
Turning 60 was 'freeing'
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First We Feast was granted an exclusive interview ahead of the TV personality's 60th birthday. He was asked if facing such a monumental birthday was terrifying. Bourdain replied, "Yeah. Somewhere, I forget what year, I was like 44. I was like: F**k I'm old now. But no, I feel free of the nonsense honestly. I don't have a lot of regrets in my life."
He added, "I'm pretty happy being a distinguished motherf**ker. The extent to which I'm free of expectations, you know, I enjoy that. The extent to which I can glide through life unnoticed is nice, too. It's freeing."
His daughter was his harshest critic
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When he wasn't traveling more than 200 days per year for his CNN hosting duties, Bourdain would spend quality time with his daughter, Ariane, from his second marriage to ex-wife Ottavia Busia (pictured). Bourdain even co-wrote a cookbook in 2016 titled Appetites: A Cookbook, which featured all of the meals he enjoyed preparing for Ariane.
During an interview with The Takeout, Bourdain said his daughter was a "very harsh critic," despite how much he loved whipping up her favorite dishes. "You know, I put a tiny tiny little bit of nutmeg in my macaroni and cheese and she did not enjoy that. She called me on it right away," he said. According to Bourdain, Ariane has a "very acute palate" and could immediately tell if he happened to "over-salt something."
"If there's any variance between a dish that she liked last time and how it's done today she'll be like, 'Nah, not eating it, there's too much pepper in that,'" Bourdain said.
He 'loved without borders'
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After splitting from Busia, Bourdain met Asia Argento while filming an episode of Parts Unknown in Rome, Italy. According to Page Six, the Italian actress and director soon became a romantic and professional fixture in his life, directing numerous episodes of his hit series.
However, just three days before Bourdain's passing, the Daily Mail posted photos of Argento in Rome holding hands with and hugging journalist Hugo Clement. Three hours before Bourdain's death was reported, she posted a cryptic message to her Instagram Stories (via People). In the post, Argento wore a ripped t-shirt that read, "F**K EVERYONE" with the caption: "You know who you are." The status of Bourdain and Argento's relationship at the time of his death is unknown. Her friend, actress Rose McGowan, told TMZ: "Anthony and Asia had a free relationship, they loved without borders of traditional relationships."
In the wake of Bourdain's passing, Argento tweeted a heartbreaking statement that said, in part, "He was my love, my rock, my protector. I am beyond devastated..."
Iggy Pop was his hero
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When it came to identifying someone he looked up to, Anthony Bourdain didn't choose a fellow chef. Instead, he bestowed the honor to his friend and punk rock legend, Iggy Pop. "He has been an enormous hero of mine since the first [The] Stooges album, the soundtrack to the good and bad times of my life," Bourdain told First We Feast.
The two sparked a friendship that included Iggy Pop making appearances on various Bourdain-hosted shows, including an episode of Parts Unknown that features the pals sharing a meal in Miami. They even interviewed each other for a piece published by GQ magazine that discussed their own mortality and Twitter trolls.
He grew up in a home 'filled with music'
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Aside from being a huge Iggy Pop and The Stooges fan, Anthony Bourdain was also a lover of various musical acts, including The Brian Jonestown Massacre and soul singer Marvin Gaye. The chef told Rolling Stone his eclectic taste could be attributed to growing up in a Leonia, N.J. home that was "filled with music."
"My dad was a guy who liked music no matter where it came from. He came home from work with Sgt. Pepper's, Disraeli Gears, Janis Joplin. He took me to shows at the Fillmore East — Hendrix, the Allman Brothers, Frank Zappa — and would sit there with me..." Bourdain told Men's Journal.
He also infused his love for music into his television shows by interviewing musicians, including Queens of the Stone Age, who appeared on episodes of No Reservations.
His generosity helped a cancer patient's dream come true
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Despite having a jam-packed schedule, Bourdain still managed to give back to those in need. He even made a teenage cancer patient's dream come true.
Ali Allouche told People magazine he was going through chemotherapy when his mom suggested he find something else to focus his attention on instead of the illness. While watching an episode of Parts Unknown, they came up with a great idea. "I said what if I try to do something like he's doing and I went to a restaurant in every state in the U.S. to travel and get the experience and meet people like he does," Allouche said.
The family started a GoFundMe page to raise funds for the culinary adventure. The fundraiser garnered online attention and reportedly caught Bourdain's eye. The TV personality donated the remaining $4,000 to help Allouche reach his $50,000 goal.
Allouche and his mom set out on their trip in October 2017 and made their first stop at a Virginia restaurant. The chef at that restaurant invited Allouche and his mom to return for a Christmas Eve dinner at his home. Once there, a surprise FaceTime chat between Bourdain and Allouche commenced. "I said, thanks for donating and told him my map is based on what you do. I was in utter shock. It was amazing," Allouche recalled.
He was 'crazy' in love, and his friends were worried
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It was clear Bourdain was madly in love with Asia Argento. When he wasn't documenting his projects on his Instagram account, he was gushing about the Italian actress and director and explaining the important role she played in his life. "Just a perfect day. You made me forget myself," he captioned a photo of him alongside Argento in April 2018.
According to a friend of the late chef, Bourdain's love for Argento went far deeper than the public grasped. One insider likened Bourdain's feelings to "a teenage boy just absolutely lovestruck," telling People, "He would have done anything for her, and that was a little red flag for some of his friends." Being in love is an amazing feeling, but those closest to Bourdain were allegedly a bit alarmed by just how smitten he appeared to be. "Like, he was crazy in love with her, crazy being the keyword," the insider said.
A posthumous food trail in his honor
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He may have left his hometown of Leonia, N.J. to embark on his career as an award winning television personality and celebrity chef, but Bourdain never forgot his roots. That's why residents of the Garden State are looking to pay homage to him with a food trail named in his honor.
According to NorthJersey.com, Bourdain's favorite eateries "from Fort Lee to Atlantic City" could be part of the official "Anthony Bourdain Food Trail" that was proposed to the state's division of travel and tourism. The proposed trail would include the ten eateries Bourdain native visited during a 2015 episode of Parts Unknown – from an oyster house to a salt water taffy establishment.
It's a wonderful way to honor Bourdain and the impact he left not only on his hometown but on the entire world.
He had one of the best Twitter feeds
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Anthony Bourdain's Twitter attracted millions. Describing himself as simply an "enthusiast" in his social media bio, he took his followers on culinary adventures, sharing photos from his travels and links to his favorite songs. His feed was named one of Twitter's best in 2013 by Time magazine. During an interview with Travel + Leisure, Bourdain revealed that he'd decided to personally craft each and every tweet. He called the platform's previous 140-character limit "exciting and fun," and stated, "It's a whole different language, and I can use it as a means to get immediate feedback from fans or to vent outrage."
Upon news of his passing, we can remember the celebrity chef's life through his Twitter and Instagram sites, which leave us with pictures from some of his happiest moments. Our thoughts are with his family and loved ones during this difficult time.
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The Double Life Of Anthony Bourdain
BY CLAIRE WILLIAMS AND CARMEN RIBECCA/UPDATED: JUNE 20, 2018 10:03 PM EST
From bad-boy chef to world-traveling CNN reporter, Anthony Bourdain led a wild life. He was a relatively unknown executive chef in New York until becoming a best-selling author at 44, a television host at 46, and a father at 51. Tragically, the chef-turned-travel-show-host died ten years later while visiting France for his Emmy-winning show, Parts Unknown. On June 8, 2018, Bourdain was found unresponsive in his hotel room by his longtime friend and fellow chef Eric Ripert. His death was ruled a suicide.
Throughout his life, Bourdain was a controversial figure who never seemed totally comfortable with the fame that accompanied his rapid rise to stardom. As a result, he led somewhat of a conflicted life; having been known to both praise and decry celebrity chefs; slamming parenthood then having a child of his own; and even adapting a healthier lifestyle while outwardly promoting what appeared to be the exact opposite on his shows.
Let's take a look back at the double life of Anthony Bourdain.
Cleaning up his troubled past
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Bourdain adapted a cleaner, healthier lifestyle in his later years, but for most of his adult life, he was an unashamed and unrepentant smoker and drinker. In his 2000 tell-all memoir Kitchen Confidential: Adventures in the Culinary Underbelly, Bourdain explicitly wrote about his prior drug use, including a major heroin addiction picked up in the kitchens of 1970s New York. "Hardly a decision was made without drugs," he wrote. "Cannabis, methaqualone, cocaine, LSD, psilocybin mushrooms soaked in honey and used to sweeten tea, secobarbital, tuinal, amphetamine, codeine and, increasingly, heroin, which we'd send a Spanish-speaking busboy over to Alphabet City to get."
Bourdain considers himself lucky to have kicked heroin in the 1980s; he knows many people who weren't so fortunate. In addition to getting clean, Bourdain is no longer the drinker he used to be, and he quit smoking in 2007 after the birth of his daughter.
His hypocritical stance on celebrity chefs
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Bourdain was known for speaking harshly about other famous chefs, but he could talk out of both sides of his mouth when it behooved him. Bourdain publicly issued scathing smackdowns of Paula Deen, Rachael Ray, Guy Fieri, Bobby Flay, and even kitchen sweetheart Emeril Lagasse. Bourdain called Deen the "worst, most dangerous person to America," telling TV Guide she "revels in unholy connections with evil corporations and she's proud of the fact that her food is f**king bad for you." He oozed disgust over the whole scene surrounding culinary stardom, which is ironic because his fame was embedded in that world.
Bourdain stuck to his principles on some fronts, such as the kind of merchandising deals that made his peers rich, but he softened his stance on other topics. In an Ask Men interview, he had some less than terrible things to say about Lagasse. "He runs a really impressive quality empire of restaurants," Bourdain said. "I mean, his show is unbearable but he looks absolutely lovable ... so awkward and sloppy and unattractive ... I don't slag the guy anymore."
Perhaps Bourdain eased up on his peers because he endured some serious slagging for succumbing to the mainstream food competition craze by appearing on ABC's The Taste. A Grantland writer said Bourdain's involvement proved he'd been "defanged like an aging circus lion," and an A.V. Club story claimed the show "shredded any future credibility when he calls a TV chef a sellout."
He compared vegetarians to terrorists, then said he 'admired' them
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Bourdain also dished out some very harsh criticism of vegetarians, comparing them to terrorists. In a 1999 piece for The New Yorker, Bourdain wrote, "Serious cooks regard these members of the dining public — and their Hezbollah-like splinter faction, the vegans — as enemies of everything that's good and decent in the human spirit. To live life without veal or chicken stock, fish cheeks, sausages, cheese, or organ meats is treasonous."
Time (and age) significantly softened that view. In 2010, he told Mother Jones, "I admire vegetarians who refuse to eat nothing but vegetables in their homes, but I also admire those who put aside those principles or those preferences when they travel. Just to be a good guest."
His healthy pursuits
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Bourdain's ex-wife, Ottavia Busia, is a Brazilian jujitsu mixed-martial-arts specialist, whose passion for the sport got Bourdain hooked on it later in life. He even competed and earned a blue belt in 2016. That's impressive, particularly since it flies in the face of Bourdain's earlier days when he indulged in far less disciplined and far more unhealthy pursuits.
In an interview with Mother Jones, he admitted to smoking three packs of cigarettes a day until his daughter was born. Even after ditching the habit, Bourdain brushed off the accomplishment. "I haven't seen my life improve in any tangible way at all since I quit," he quipped. In the same interview, Bourdain simultaneously equated eating McDonald's with "huffing crack in front of your kid," but admitted that he loves "the macaroni and cheese at Popeye's" and even the fast food fare "at the Colonel."
He buried his bad-boy image
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Bourdain had a way with words, both the poetic and the profane. As he admitted in an interview with the Daily Mail, "I had a reputation for being cynical and foul-mouthed and a bit of a p***k." He's been equally blunt about ditching his edgier life when his first child, daughter Ariane, debuted in 2007. "The second she was born, the Ramones T-shirts, vestigial leather jackets, that s**t was in the garbage. It's gone," he said. "It's undignified at my age."
His feelings about family life
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Bourdain married twice — the first time to high-school sweetheart Nancy Putkoski from the '80s to the early 2000s. He cited the transformation that come with traveling the world as the main cause of their breakup. "She was the love of my life," he told The Guardian. "But everything changed." Bourdain said he didn't regret waiting to become a dad. "I would have been a s**t parent," he said. "I'm a very good uncle. The evil uncle who lets them do everything. But a parent? Up until very recently I could hardly take care of myself."
Bourdain's feelings about family life made an about-face in 2007 after marrying Busia and having Ariane. The fiercely independent workaholic reportedly made serious adjustments to his shooting schedule to have more time with his family. "I can't be away that long, because I come back and my daughter is different," he told Fast Company. "I'm trying to be a good dad, given the weirdness of my situation. Nothing makes me happier than watching cartoons with my daughter."
By September 2016, Bourdain and Busia had divorced, after which Bourdain revealed to People that they'd lived "very separate lives for years." He also confirmed that he was traveling "about 250 days a year," and his daughter had "gotten used to it," describing her as "a very healthy, very happy, self-assured little girl who knows she's loved, who finds her parents entertaining."
He wasn't born with a silver spoon
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Bourdain seemed like a wildly successful, brash, know-it-all adventurer, but this famous foodie wasn't born with a silver spoon. In fact, Bourdain didn't achieve financial stability until his memoir, Kitchen Confidential, found its audience. As he told Biography, "At the age of 44, I was standing in kitchens, not knowing what it was like to go to sleep without being in mortal terror. I was in horrible, endless, irrevocable debt. I had no health insurance. I didn't pay my taxes. I couldn't pay my rent. It was a nightmare..."
Bourdain's big break began in 1999 with a one-time writing gig for The New Yorker titled "Don't Eat Before Reading This." That transformed into a book deal (Kitchen Confidential), which turned into a show on the Food Network called A Cook's Tour. A year later, No Reservations launched on the Travel Channel in 2005. As the contract for No Reservations expired in 2012, CNN asked Bourdain to lead an original series. He served up Anthony Bourdain: Parts Unknown, which won several Emmy Awards and a prestigious Peabody Award.
Though Bourdain's life ended tragically, he clearly took some pleasure in his unconventional approach to his late-blooming fame, and he earned the accolades to justify it.
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BY TODD JACOBS/UPDATED: OCT. 4, 2019 5:01 PM EST
Anthony Bourdain, the iconic chef and author whose gift of storytelling took viewers around the globe to discover new cuisine and new cultures, was found unresponsive in a hotel room in France. He'd died of an apparent suicide. Bourdain's tragic passing was confirmed by CNN, the home of his award-winning series Parts Unknown. He was 61.
"It is with extraordinary sadness we can confirm the death of our friend and colleague, Anthony Bourdain," CNN said in a statement. "His love of great adventure, new friends, fine food and drink and the remarkable stories of the world made him a unique storyteller. His talents never ceased to amaze us and we will miss him very much. Our thoughts and prayers are with his daughter and family at this incredibly difficult time."
News of his untimely death soon spread via social media where many celebrities were quick to mourn and remember the beloved TV host.
Gordon Ramsay
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Bourdain's peer from the other side of the pond, celebrity chef and restaurateur Gordon Ramsay, expressed his disbelief over the loss of Bourdain, and he pleaded with others to seek help when needed. "Stunned and saddened by the loss of Anthony Bourdain," the Master Chef host tweeted. "He brought the world into our homes and inspired so many people to explore cultures and cities through their food. Remember that help is a phone call away US:1-800-273-TALK UK: 116 123."
Rose McGowan
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Overcome with grief, Rose McGowan posted a tearful video to Twitter. "Anthony I am so mad at you. You were so loved, the world is not better without you. I have a message for those considering suicide as a solution to a temporary problem. Please call a hotline. Please reach out. Asia [Argento] needed you, Anthony. We needed you. Please come back."
Bourdain was dating McGowan's friend and actress Asia Argento at the time of his death. According to the Mirror, he'd allegedly felt tormented over Argento's reveal that she was one of Harvey Weinstein's victims.
Chrissy Teigen
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A published chef in her own right, model and television personality Chrissy Teigen was heartbroken over the devastating news of Bourdain's death. "Anthony. One of my idols. Unapologetic, passionate and one of the best storytellers on the planet, the best-selling author of Cravings: Recipes for All the Food You Want to Eat tweeted. "Thank you for making food so exciting. And always standing up for everything right. Horrible. Why why why. Be at peace now."
Bryan Cranston
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Breaking Bad star Bryan Cranston shed light on the suicide rates in the United States and challenged us all to be more cognizant of the silent suffering around us. "According to [the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention], there are nearly 45,000 suicides every year in the US. Shocking. I was saddened to hear of the deaths of Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain," the multiple Emmy award-winner tweeted. "RIP. It illustrates that success is not immune to depression. We all need to be more aware of our friends who are suffering."
Neil deGrasse Tyson
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Pop culture astrophysicist Neil deGrasse Tyson made sure to promote science while also mourning Bourdain. "As @NASA searches for life on Mars, we lose the life of beloved Anthony Bourdain on Earth, he tweeted. "Implicit and explicit reminders of how precious life is, anywhere in the universe." The former Cosmos: A Spacetime Odyssey host added, "A friend of @StarTalkRadio. A friend of Food & Culture. A friend to us all. Anthony Bourdain, RIP. (1956-2018)."
Jake Tapper
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Bourdain's fellow CNN host Jake Tapper confirmed Bourdain's death as a suicide in a tweet and explained that the chef had been working at the time of his passing. "This is so awful. Anthony Bourdain, 61, has died. He took his own life," the The Lead with Jake Tapper host tweeted. "He was in France working on an upcoming episode of his award-winning CNN series. His close friend Eric Ripert, the French chef, found Bourdain unresponsive in his hotel room Friday morning."
Lucy Hale
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Actress and singer Lucy Hale took to Twitter to show the effect Bourdain had on the millions of people who watched him. "Anthony Bourdain lived in a way that most of us should," the Pretty Little Liars alum tweeted. "A seeker of the unknown [and] a man who exposed magnificent parts of the world to us through our TVs. I don't even know what to say, this makes me so damn sad. I truly loved him [and] what he stood for."
Elijah Wood
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Actor, producer, and director Elijah Wood celebrated what made Anthony Bourdain the man he was and mourned the thought of no longer having him share those qualities with the world. The Lord of the Rings trilogy star tweeted, "His wisdom, his insight, his humor, his compassion, his staunch resistance to the inauthentic and support of all that resonates from the heart, and his passion for life that he shared with the us....Its difficult to process a world without Anthony Bourdain."
Amber Tamblyn
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Actress Amber Tamblyn, who got her start on 2003's Joan of Arcadia, took the time to ask her Twitter followers to give strength to her friend and Bourdain's girlfriend, Asia Argento, during her time of need. "Witches: please prepare the strongest protection spell you have for our sister Asia Argento today," the star of The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants tweeted. "Please lift her up with all the love and light your conjuring is capable of casting. #AnthonyBourdain."
Tom Arnold
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Actor and stand-up comedian, Tom Arnold, remembered his friend Anthony Bourdain in a loving tribute on Twitter. "Anthony Bourdain was a genius, a warrior, a survivor & a fearless friend," the True Lies star tweeted. "He was also very humane. Some of us battle monsters. Humans let their guards down. Monsters monster. #RipAnthony This World Lost A Very Good Man."
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